Just some pontificating on my unfortunate tendency to attempt control over my little world, as framed through a writer’s perspective. Ironically, I wrestled a fair bit with pinning down the phrases for this one. Kept getting lost in the words. π
My Storymaker
Ah, my life-it often feels a long series,
One stumbly chapter to the next,
Where emotion both swells and
Wearies.
And the writer in me queries-
How best to play out a story
So complex?
Well, as I amass the content of my
Days
And lay them all upon my lap,
I fall quite handily into my own
Control freakish ways
And never quite see the trap. π
For, in the desire to possess said
Control,
I must confess
It’s largely about this for which I am
Equal parts cursed and blessed:
Words. Glorious words.
How I love to weave them-
From the poignant to the absurd.
Words! Glorious words to aspire
Toward,
Thereby propelling
Forward my intricate plans,
Thoughts of relinquishing authorship
Rarely occuring, compelling in me
The stress of trying to arrange things
Strand by painstaking strand. π
And so, I pick up the narrator’s pen
With relish,
Ready to begin, to tweak and to
Embellish.
Fresh page flipped open…
How shall I tell my tale?
How shall my life’s lines today
Unveil?
I sometimes think I know.
So I go to scribble down thoughts’
Shape
And only then do I note the troubles
That set in to grow…
Panic thumps my heart then,
As players and conversations away
From my hands spin.
Events take course in a direction
Wholly unintended.
And I feel all the worse for it-
Baffled, bereft, unfriended.
So…I attempt to crumple the errant
Papers of my existence,
Too spent to begin again with any
True sense.
Ah, but then comes the hand of my
Creator
To still my agitated own.
“Let Me, ” whispers the voice of He
Who is greater,
Smoothing out my wadded up life and
Reminding me I am not tinkering
Alone.
For, He is to be my Storymaker,
He points out with a Father’s
Smiling tenderness,
Lovingly showing me where I have
Gone remiss.
With kind shepherd’s crook
He causes me to pause and look
At what He has written for me,
Chastening me, yes, but oh-so-gently,
And hastening me to His side,
The very best narrative there could
Be!
And so I surrender my pen, my
Beloved control
And leave the wordcraft of my soul
Wholly over to Him…
It’s difficult many times, but may we indeed surrender control of the stories of our lives over to the Lord, knowing He has the very best in mind for each of us. Thanks for reading, dear friends! Much love, many blessings and prayers! β€
Oh my friend, I see myself in your words.
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Glad you could relate, dear Barb. Surrender is hard. Very grateful for a patient heavenly Father that guides us in all things. Blessings and prayers, my friend! β€
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May we indeed surrender control to Him. He knows best.
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Amen! So true! Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts, Manu! Blessings to you! β€
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As a self confessed word nerd/control freak. I praise God daily that He is our Divine Director, Editor and Producer! I am thankful that our God is NOT the Author of confusion but rather the Author and Perfecter of our faith. You are loved, Marisa! I am thankful for your honesty and transparency! I strive to be/do the same!! Love and blessings pretty lady!
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Yay! Fellow word nerd and control freak! π Amen! Very grateful He is the Author and Perfector of our faith! Thank you so much, Mandy! Love and blessings to you as well, beautiful friend! β€
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Luv this!
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Hi, Jodie! Thanks so much! Blessings! β€
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Beautiful Marisa. And I understand how difficult it can be to relinquish that control…overthinking….worrying. Yep, been there done that, haven’t wrote the book on it yet. π Well, havenβt published any books on it. Probably have enough written to prove it though. π
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Oh, my, yes! The overthinking and worrying! My poor head! π Ooh, I would love to read a book from you! Thank you so much, dear Tina! Blessings to you! β€
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Amen. Help me Lord to give it all up and trust you with my whole life always. π
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Amen! I join you in that prayer, my friend! Thank you and blessings! β€
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Wow, this is awesome! Not every writer is good at poetry. Love this. π
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Aww, thanks, Lily! Poetry has always been one of my favorite mediums! π
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I think most of us struggle with the control issue at one time or another or many times. As they say, the trouble with a “living sacrifice” is that it keeps crawling off the altar. π
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Oh, my, yes! That is so true! Thanks for reading and sharing, Annie! Blessings to you! β€
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Blessings back, Marissa. πβ€οΈ
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Amen! This is a wonderful poem! Thanks for sharing!
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And thank you for reading and commenting! Blessings, Temiloluwa! β€
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The Storymaker, looking for a heart; willing to be the pen, and His love the ink! Nice share!
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Thank you, Warren! What a lovely comment! Blessings! β€
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Youβre welcome!ππ½
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So nice, Marisa. It takes us places in our own lives. For me, the strongest words to the entire piece is…”but then…”
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Thanks so much, Alan! Yes, so much has been changed in hearts and lives with “but, then”. π Blessings to you!
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This definitely got me thinking. Been trying to wrestle with if life is about following signs to the life God wants us to follow or if itβs about making our own leaps of faith, taking the decisions ourselves and then looking for the signpost about if God thinks itβs the right decision we have made or not.
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Glad it could inspire some thinking!That is certainly a big question to wrestle with. I personally believe, as contradictory as it sounds, that somehow both exist at the same time. Since He is omniscient, He knows what decisions we will make and puts out signposts, yet, He has given us free will. He wants us to choose Him and the things He has for us willingly.
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I think you could be right. I sometimes fear waiting for something to happen rather than actually taking that leap of faith and then looking for signposts on if it was the right action.
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I definitely relate!
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Thanks Marisa! He the true Author of our stories. Resting in Him is the best thing we can do. β€οΈ
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Amen! And thank you for reading, Dawn! Blessings to you! β€
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